Have you met someone and felt the meet was not enough? Not even close to enough and you just want that time when you can stay quiet for a long, long time and just listen and listen and listen or just blabber something that doesn't make any sense or just talk or anything but just be with them and meet for longgggg, longer than longgggg could be.
Yeah! I miss that kind of meet. That meet that makes you feel "Oh! we met "manbharera"!" Maybe sometime soon!
Metta!
Sunday, May 16, 2021
Sunday, May 09, 2021
To Learn and to Unlearn (What does it take?)
It's interesting and really a feel good thing to see people complimenting others in this place and others responding the same way too. It's really a virtue to do so. Really a virtue!! And I realize the lack of complimenting others in us. Many people among us have a hard time in doing so. Else why can we not compliment? Why do we tend to be so "tough" with words? Why is it so tough to say some good words? And if we are complimenting it's never whole-hearted, but some say just for the sake of saying? Why?? What does it take for us to compliment others and while getting some compliments- to compliment back. Is it just the lack of learning?? Because we never learnt so! Because we never knew the other person is as beautiful, is as amazing and they know a lot more things than us and we are not only the ones. Or is it because while growing up we have always been thought "mediocre" or "useless" or some such sorts that all we know is to see the shortcomings in the other even while they have immense goodness in them.
If we learnt this way, why can we not "unlearn" some wrong in us. Or we never feel/know it's wrong anyways because we always grew up this way.
One of those days I want to word my thoughts. Those #Crude thoughts.
More to say but well, until next time.
Metta!
Friday, May 07, 2021
Flying thoughts!
(7 May 2021, 6:45 AM. We are shifting to a new place and my sleep just went off. I took a nap for like 1 or 1 and half hours maybe while making Aarvik sleep and that’s it. I wanted to write something since long so just having the hot lemon and scribbling. Chantal will be here in sometime and our day will kick off with more work 😆)
After leaving a certain age, after knowing yourself for certain time, maybe we as humans should come to that realization that we know ourselves. We shouldn’t try to create a false imagery of ourselves with us. If we are still doing so, let’s come face to face with ourselves and decide and move on. That should be healthy and that should let you be at peace as well.
I get angry in small things sometimes, sometimes don’t care. But the way I get angry at petty stuffs and where I shouldn’t have stressed myself I keep coming to a realization that there’s a lot anger submerged inside me and that comes out time and often in wrong ways. I realize that I have taken a lot bullshit of people and I have been the tolerant one that much that all I have left with me is anger, Anger towards all of them who did wrong to me and maybe time and often that anger oozes in different forms. I am still in that phase where I cannot forgive and forget. I can’t do. My silence has been interpreted in wrong ways. Somebody’s nature is not their weakness but well people took it so. So yeah! My anger will need some time to rest maybe.
Just that I don’t want this anger to be taken along somewhere far. Let it flow and go!!