America drains you, drains you to bits at times.
And then I realize as a woman, I have always lived a drained life even though I have been trying to be the strongest one. Strongest one--in telling what I want, what I need, and where my aspirations are. Still weak-- still being hesitant to say so many things and just shutting myself down. That's easy, I guess, rather than draining. But yet you drain!
Metta!