Thoughts never rest !

My thoughts never rest.
Some day I wish
they let themselves rest

My thoughts never rest.
I let them fly
let them live their life

And My thoughts never rest.
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Thoughts !

My thoughts never rest.
They have a mind of their own which wove a hundred and ten more type of thoughts.

Metta !
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महर्षि वेदव्यासको कर्म भूमि

आत्माराम ओझा 

नेपाल र भारत राजनीतिकरूपले अलग अलग राष्ट्र भए पनि सांस्कृतिकरूपले भने दुवै देशमा एकता छ। यसका लागि दुवै देशका धर्म प्राण हिन्दु जनताको छिमेकी देशको तीर्थाटनको निरन्तरता सृष्टि कालदेखि अहिलेसम्म यथावत् रहिआएको छ।

तैपनि महात्मा गौतम बुद्धको जन्मभूमि सम्बन्धमा होस् अथवा प्रथम सगरमाथा (एभरेस्ट) आरोहीको मामिलामा होस् भारतका केही पत्रपत्रिका नेपाली क्षेत्रका विशेषतालाई आफ्नो क्षेत्रमा रहेको लेख्न संकोच गर्दैनन्।

यसै सिलसिलामा चार वेदका सम्पादनकर्ता एवं अठार पुराण तथा महाभारत ग्रन्थसमेतका निर्माता भगवान द्वैपायन वेदव्यासलाइ पनि भारतीय क्षेत्रकै उत्पत्ति भनेर भारतीय समाचारहरुमा आउने गरेका छन्। नेपालको एउटा टिभी प्रसारणमा श्री वेदव्यासको जन्मभूमि नेपालको तनहुँ दमौलीमा भएको र उनका पिता महर्षि परासर र वेदव्यासको गुफा अहिलेसम्म विद्यमान रहेको तथा वेदव्यासको १०८ फुट अग्लो मूर्ति निर्माण गरिने भएको खबर प्रशारण भएको थियो। उक्त प्रशारणमा वेदव्यासले १८ पुराण पनि दमौलीमा नै बसी लेखेका थिए भन्नेसमेत उल्लेख थियो।

आफ्नो देशका महान् विभूतिहरुको परिचय देश विदेशमा दिइरहनु प्रशंसनीय कुरा हो तर अधुरा समाचारहरुले भ्रममात्र सिर्जना गर्छ। वेदव्यासको जन्म तनहुँ दमौलीमा भएको हुन सक्छ तर उहाँबाट रचित पुरानादी ग्रन्थहरु दमौलीमा बसेर लेखेका भन्ने कुनै प्रमाण प्रस्तुत भएन। महाभारत ग्रन्थमा वेदव्यासले हिमालय कैलाशतर्फ गमन गरेको यस श्लोकले पनि पुष्टि गर्छ :

स्वस्तिस्तेस्तु गमिस्यामी कैलाश पर्वत प्रति।

अप्रयस स्थिरोदान्त प्रिथिव्याम परिपालय।।

(महाभारत सभा पर्व (कल्याण अवतार अंकबाट)

महाभारत युद्धपूर्व कौरवहरुले पाण्डवहरुलाई राज्य अंश नदिने हठ गरेका कारण उत्पन्न अवश्यम्भावी युद्धमा क्षत्रीयहरुको महाविनाश हुन सक्ने भविष्य आंकलन गरी आमा सत्यवतीसहित व्यासले कैलाश पर्वततर्फ गमन गर्नुभएको स्पष्ट छ। कैलाश गमनको सिलसिलामा उहाँ दार्चुला जिल्लाअन्तर्गतका ठाउँहरुमा बस्नुभएको प्रमाण विद्यमान छन्।

दार्चुला जिल्लामा व्यास गुफा नामक एउटा विशाल गुफा (कन्दरा) छ जसमा बसेर वेदव्यासले भनेअनुसार गणेशजीले पुराणादि लेख्नुभएको थियो भन्ने कथा पनि छन्। प्राचीनकालमा भोजपत्रहरुमा लेख्ने गर्थे। यसैअनुरूप दार्चुलाकै विशाल भोजपत्रको जंगलबाट ठूलाठूला ताउ भोजपत्रहरु निक्लने हुनाले त्यसबाट निकालिएका भोजपत्रका ताउहरुमा गणेशजीले लेख्नुभएको थियो हककला। स्मरणीय छ, दार्चुला कैलाश पर्वत निकटको जिल्ला हो। शिव–पार्वतीको निवास मानिएको कैलाशबाट वेदव्यासले गणेशलाई बोलाएर ल्याई ब्यास गुफामा बसी पुराण महाभारतादी ग्रन्थ लेखाएको हुन सक्छ। भगवान शिव मल्लिकार्जुनरूपले दार्चुला जिल्लाकै एउटा शिखरमा विराजमान हुनुहुन्छ र लटबाब, गलबाब नाउले गणेशजी तथा कुमार कार्तिकेयका मन्दिर पनि विद्यमान छन्।

वेदव्यासको दार्चुला जिल्लामा निवास भएको कारण त्यहाँका आदिवासी सौका समुदाय आफूलाई भगवान वेदव्यासका सन्तति अथवा शिष्यका रूपमा मान्छन् र यीमध्ये एउटा समूहलाई व्यासी पनि भन्छन्। यस क्षेत्रमा व्यासका नाउँबाट अनेक स्मृति विद्यमान छन् जसमा व्यास हिमाल, व्यास गर्खा, व्यास गुफा, व्यास मन्दिर पर्छन् । व्यास मन्दिरमा वर्षेनी मेला लाग्छ र सौका समुदायबाट पूजाअर्चना हुने गर्छ।

यसप्रकार वेदव्यासको जन्म भूमि र कर्म भूमि नेपाली क्षेत्रमै रहेको बुझिन्छ। महाभारत ग्रन्थका कथाहरुमा पनि माता सत्यवतीले बोलाएका बेला हस्तिनापुर जाने/आउने गरेका प्रसङ्ग छन् तर उहाँको स्थायी बसोबास भने हस्तिनापुर होइन। तनहुँ दमौलीमा वेदव्यासको महिमा दर्शाउने स्मृति चिह्नस्वरूप उहाँको ठूलो मूर्ति स्थापित गर्ने जस्ता कुरा अत्यन्त सराहनीय छन्। तर महाभारतको महायुद्धपछि दार्चुला जिल्लामा निवास भएको कुरा वर्णन नभएमा उहाँको इतिहास अपूर्ण रहन सक्ने हुँदा यो प्रसङ्ग कसैले पनि छोड्नु हुँदैन।

श्रीकृष्ण द्वैपायन वेदव्यासको र श्यामा (महाकाली) नदी विषयमा स्कन्द पुराणको मानस खण्डमा पनि यस प्रकार लेखिएको देखिन्छ :

k"hOTjf u'+? Jof;Zofdf d"n]nof]lDjtd\ .

cfrf/ xLgf blkhgf tq:yfg\k;Gtd ..

t]h]of Jof; ;b[iod\ exfly k"Hof g ;+;o .

of] j|h]g g[k;fO{ k'0o+ Jof;f>df k/d\ ..

cy{M Zofdf (dxfsfnL_ gbLsf] d"ndf tk:of ug]{ u'?Jof;sf] k"hf ugf{n] cfr/0fxLg JolQmx? Klg kljq x'G5g\ .

lxdfno t6] PDdf] k'0of Jof;f>df] xjf .

Zofdfof ;+ud k'0of ljz]if]0ft' j0f{t] ..

Zofdfof ;+ud] :gfTjf g/f]xl/ k/d\ j|h]t ..

;/k" ;+oq] k'0of Zofdf gfd ;dfugf ..

cy{M lxdfnosf] /d0fLo t6df l:yt k'Ho Jof; cf>d af6 pTkGg Zofdf (dxfsfnL_ gbLsf] ljz]if j0f{g ul/Psf] 5 . Zofdfdf :gfg ug]{ JolQm >L xl/ kb k|fKt ub{5 . 

स्मरणीय छ, कैलाश मानसरोवर तीर्थयात्राका लागि नेपाली क्षेत्रको प्रमुख मार्ग पनि दार्चुला नै हो।  

साभार : नागरिक दैनिक बाट 

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My GURU !

There are so many instances in life when you are remembered Dr. Yonzon. You are the GURU who holds and will forever hold the sacred place in our hearts. Humans are emotional and we possess this human behavior of un-forgetfulness too. Coz at the end what remains is the memory and we lived some awesome moments with you making up the best of memories for life. 

I still feel ecstatic and proud for the moments spent with you, around you and I proudly post this memoir over here too. We love you Pralad sir.

Deep respects !

Pic taken at Resources Himalaya Foundation

And still I get *wordless* to write some more.
Stay in peace
Metta !

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क्षण-२ !!

"कस्तो हुदो हो जब तिमीले आफुले नगरेको गल्तिको सजाय भोग्नु पर्ने हुन्छ । तिमिले केहि गरेको नि हुदैनौ, न केहि भन्नलाइ नै हुन्छ तिमि सङ कहिले पनि। तर जहिले कुसुरवार सरि तिमीलाई नै ठड्याइञ्छ," उनीले भनिन् आफु सँग नै।

आफु सँग बोल्ने  बानि नै भैसकेको  थियो उन्को अचेल।  तेही लवजमा अरुले जो बुझ्दैन थिए उन्ले भनेको कुरोहरु। अनि उनि नि कसैलाई बुझाउन नसक्ने भई कि थिइन अचेल । उनिलाई जहिले नया नया कुरो गरी रहन पर्ने । कति तेही कुरो भनि रहनु जस्तो लाग्न थालेको थियो उनिलाई । एकै ठाउमा बसी रहनु, एकै कुरो गरी रहनुले विकासक्रम बाधिएको जस्तो लाग्थ्यो उनिलाई।  

जहिले चरी सरि उड्न, नयाँ आकाश चाहार्न चाहन्थिन उनि । उडान कसैले रोकी देला? पन्ख कसैले काटी देला ?भन्ने डर चाही जहिले रहन्थ्यो फेरी उनिलाई । आफ्नो वरि-परिको परिवेश बारे के नै भन्न सकिन्थ्यो र उसै पनि?

कुन दिन कुनै बाजले फड्को हानि आउछ र अनन्त आकाशलाई नै सानो बनाइ दिन्छ भन्ने बडो डर छ उनिलाई ।  तेही डरले होला शायद, उनको आखा बडो बोल्न थालेको छ अचेल।  केहि डर नभनिए नि आखामा जो देखिन्छन। तर ति सादा डराएका आखा कुनै रुपमा नि राम्रो देखिदैन भनेर बुझाउन सक्ने क्षमता उनि आफु संग नि  रहेको छैन अचेल। सोच्दा-सोच्दै आखा पत्थर सरि सुन्न प्राय हुन जान्छन अनि थकित भएर सुत्छिन उनि।

इति !

पहिलो: क्षण !!
चित्र: डेविअण्ट आर्ट बाट !

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Stone !

"Stones are worshiped as idols", it said.

"Sad to know you are a "stone". You will just be worshiped now," I smiled.


Metta !!

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Reflection !

You bid farewell
See the reflection
Get reflected !!

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Tits-bits-of life--They continued the story !

Preeya knew I was up for trekking again and she would not be in touch with me for long. May be that was the reason, I witnessed 30 missed calls from her in my phone again. So she was trying hard to talk to me a thought flew over my mind.

I called her back and as soon as she picked up the phone she could not stop herself and started without any formality,"at every point I feel like writing. Writing always gives me solace. There are always as many ideas as could be flying by in my mind that need to rest. I have this weird feeling of being heard always...I always have so many says to say to peoples and I am always filled with ideas. Ahh ! Suman what do I do?"

"Hmm," I said (this was our usual way of listening).

"Sometimes I feel, would I just end up in this wall of writes or sayings? Or will my ideas, my thoughts land up as somewhere concrete?" she quivered. 

I was listening to her quietly while she was speaking in her usual tone.

"Having a bunch of ideas is always a tough thing and I always have been going through this. Life's tough Suman," she added with a long sigh.

I could not help smiling. And she knew that I could exactly depict her feels.

"You know what Preeya every single individual thrives for their individuality, stands to be something different from the other," I started slowly.

"Do you know the word 'sonder'?," I inquired.

"No, what is it?," was her prompt response.

"It is a sudden realization that everyone we see/meet has as complicated and interesting life as ours. So, how much do we really think about other people? Do we have time to do that? Similarly, what makes us think that others have time to think about us and if they really do, how boring and dull their life really is," I replied in a casual tone.

"Hmm....That's interesting," was what she could say.

I was on with the flow,"Also, I have realized that time actually travels so much faster when you live in a different society. Trying to work, finding a place to live/rent, communicating with different people everyday makes our lives so filled with tiny details that we have maneuver our ways through that we think everyday routines are petty."

"But on the other hand, people who have lived in the same place for decades, donot have to interact with different personalities on a daily basis hold on to the same old thoughts. So, usually people who have lived a very stagnant life tend to be more judgmental than the ones on the move."

"So, if you are looking for friendship that you think is neutral and supportive, find people who are always on the move, and who enjoy that kind of adventure. Just saying that if you seek some kind of openness and a good healthy relationship/friendship, careful that you dont seek it from people who have nothing else to do all day rather than edit and post their selfies on facebook. If you find more "interesting" friends, your obsession over one person that you think is so wise and cool will subside because you will know so many people that are wise, smart, generous and cool."

"I am up making friends Suman," Preeya said.

"I dont think you are up making friends- just saying that if you dont have a few friends that you can actually "talk to" and think wont judge you, then maybe you are not making "good friends", or in the right context. No one ever meets people who can fulfill all your needs- emotional, physical, mental, sexual... but lets say someone can meet your emotional needs, but not your mental- they can at least be supportive of your needs."

We were scratching thoughts as much as possible. We both were struggling with the ideas and I just tried to let her flee her thoughts with my says. I felt she could subside some of her thoughts, but still it was a long run. Life as it is.

I called upon her, but may be she had already slept. I could hear her snoring. The burgeoning thoughts might have made her tired, I smiled and let the phone cut off. 

We always have tonnes of thoughts-one residing over the other

Metta !

Image courtesy: @deviantart

Series: Tits-bits-of life-A story

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Tale of the two worlds-II

As soon as she woke up that morning the first thing that came in her mind was him. He, who was her best of friends-yet he, whom she had not heard from ages. She had to go for her routinized morning run but she couldn't help talking out to him before getting on to the daily chores.

She logged into her PC and saw him online. She expected him to call her so waited for sometime. But after his silence for a longer time, she knocked him against the screen which always kept them apart yet always kept them in touch. 

The talk started with casual hi's and hello's and they reached talking about tennis where Federer had recently won a match. Federer was their favorite. After talking for sometime the unusual silence came in between them again. She started feeling uncomfortable and thought of some topics to speak to. 

"What if I write about our story?" she said in a soft sparkling voice

"There's no story of ours for heaven's sake," his voice was suddenly agitated.

"My feels carry the story, be you not bother about it. I will write our story," her voice swayed away. 

There was no response from him. Recently this was the best way he did answer me with, unlike other days where he used to speak so much. He did not speak a word more. Silence creeped in as the fog of the cold winter morning which was awaiting for her outside.

"I move off. Good day," she typed on the screen and walked away. Walked away into the early morning hues to get better and feel better for the rest of her coming life.

Metta !!
So here I start a new series of the story "Tale of the two worlds" after my first take in "Tale of the two worlds"
Image courtesy: Popoks @deviantart

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Expectations !

Sometimes I,

don't have words

And then I

end wordless

And if I,

end wordless
Won't you be,
my world of words

Sometimes I,
crave for things
And then I,
look for you
And if I,
look for you
Won't you then,
come around again

Sometimes I,
miss you loads
And then I,
wish for you
And if I,
wished for you
Won't you then,
be there for me

Sometimes I,
keep on wishing
And then I,
wish you hear
And if I,
wish for you
Won't you then,
listen to me

Sometimes I,
scratch endless words
And then I,
expect some piece of your words
And if I,
expect a piece from you
Won't you then,
do a favor to me

Sometimes I,
mumble a lot
And then I,
wish you hear my mumblings'
And If I,
wish you to hear
Won't you then,
hear and respond

Sometimes I,
keep on waiting
And then I,
wish my waitings end
And if I,
wish my waitings to end
Won't you then,
listen this much at all

Metta !!
Image courtesy: Popoks @deviantart

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October !

I sit at my table and stare at this screen as I start writing something bizarre. To be honest, I don't like *Octobers'*. October for me is like that unsung song which I sometimes feel would not have been sung at all.

A question strikes me time and then, "What would have happened if this month had not existed in the calender of our lives?" Had the happenings that happened in this month had not happened??"

It is said that "होनी को कौन टाल सक्ता हे". For me I still wish had the happenings un-happened.

I have some unwonted wishes and I wish at a point in my life they be fulfilled. One of them is still my wishing for *October* to not come in my life. After every September, I call upon November or any other month but not October.

~Only if wishes were heard~.

Metta !!

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Twitchy

I coined the word and got more twitched.

Metta !!

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