Isn't it interesting to know/feel what you might be thinking right now is just a common thought scenario as anyone your age/ background/ social structure/ exposure/ vulnerability/ race/ gender/ ethnicity/ place...... would have done/ be doing? Hundreds of people like you have thought the way you did and hundreds of them are doing so right now. Also Hundreds of them will be doing sometime in future too.
What a Sonderous moment to realize this!!
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| From: The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows |
Metta!
Not exactly this or that but yeah I guess am able to vocalize my thoughts properly.
"Vocalize" properly! Ehh! Sounds vague right! I was reading myself back from 10 years and there I know what a confused soul I was (I might still be). But I say things pretty clearly now. Does it lessen the arc of my confused being? Well! I am practicing it. Trying to unlearn few of the things.
But it was not only my fault for being what I was or I am, it's the years of nurturing I got and the thoughts that have been kept feeding into me in different situations of my life. To keep fighting with so many different thoughts and beings while remaining whatever ME was left in it has been a tough job. I would be making that extra effort to make people believe in me that I have the caliber to do things on my own. Isn't that tough? To be fighting with the societal norms while also keeping up with it and still existing. While I try to get out of the past and move on with my present, I realize every time -It's so difficult to UNLEARN. So very difficult. The way you have grown up and the thoughts that keep haunting you because that was how you grew and that was how you kept on being nurtured and how that is what remains in most part of your brains. That's why even knowing that it's not someone else's fault- you blame them, or get anxious or shout, or something like that!
I have been trying to UNLEARN and it has never been easy! It's indeed tough. Very tough! Yet I will keep unlearning those that needs to be unlearnt!
Metta!
