That feeling!!

Wait! I can die off any moment. #ThatFeeling ...

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D-Day!!

The day when decisions are made. Either in our favor or against our favor. Or may be somewhere in between. I will remember 2015 for so many reasons and 31st December, 2015 for so many more reasons.  Right Now: I am having such a cramp kind of feeling in my stomach, that adrenaline rush and so many more of feelings roll (I just made the spelling mistake, 'roll' as 'role', you can just feel my anxiety *_*) around by. Jeez!! And only One name in mind and heart and kidney and blah blah (I am in dire need of words to get better). Such things...

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Equations!

Every equation failed. when love happened. Metta I seek...

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Love and Prayers!

I am full of feelings and feelings doesn't seem ending. Wish you a very Happy Married Life. Love and Prayers :...

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Don't judge !

If a favor could be done to me, I wish I am not judged. Not by my words, not by my responses, not by my presence, not by my walks, not even by my talks, not by what I wear, not by who I talk to, not this, not even that. I don't like judgements neither I like to be judged. Metta !! In peace we liv...

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Selfie(of words)!

May be that was not even important. May be that was not even to be said. But still you lie there somewhere in between just to make believe that it existed. The existence was there for the 'false beliefs', 'unwanted thoughts' and 'not so happening beings'.  Still it existed as the unwanted wreckwrath (only if a word like this existed). Oh! btw I love formulating new words of  my own and define it by myself. Life be good. Prayers and wishes...

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मनौरो (भाग-२)!

भाग-१: मनौरो  …समयको सार्है पाबन्द थियो समीर। सदाझैँ मधुर मुस्कानका साथ समय अगावै नै आइ पुग्यो ऊ काजल  बसेको छेउमा नै । समीरलाई परबाट देख्दै गर्दा नै काजलको हृदय एक चोटी फेरी ढुक्क गर्यो। यो हजारौ पटक थियो होला उस्को हृदयले आफ्नो गति छोडेको। सोचि ऊसले मनमनै माया गर्नुको नि हद हुदों हो कसैलाई। सोची दुनिया माया-माया भनि यत्तिकै पागल हुँदैन रहेछ ।  मनमा यी कुरा सोची रहँदा समिरको आवाज उसको कानमा गुञ्जियो "के खाने सिम्रिका? अर्डर गरि हालम न।"  उसलाई केहि खाने मन...

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Vanish!

I try hard not to vanish away. *Puff* And I will be gone. Mett...

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मनौरो !

"सिग्रेट छोड्दा नि त्यो सिग्रेटको माया लाको होला हैं तिमीलाई, तर मबाट टाढा हुदाँ मेरो अलि नि माया लागेन नि?," भन्दै जोरसँग फोनमा कराइछे ऊ।  समिरसँग बोल्ने नि मन थिएन ऊसलाई तर सहनको नि सीमा हुदों हो शायद। अनि आज त्यो बाँध फुटेको थियो। "सिम्रिका" हो यहि नाम दिएको थियो समिरले काजललाई र ऊ पनि यो नाम पाई मक्ख परेकि थिई। थाहा थिएन नि दुनियाको नियम ऊसलाई।  आफु जस्तै सरस-सलिल जो सोच्दथि सबैलाई। समिर पनि आफ्नो नाम सरि नै थियो, उडेर जान आतुर। तर समीरको उडानले काजलका खुला पखेटाहरुलाई काटिदिएको थियो र...

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P.S: It's PMS !

*PMSing* It's tough and we really have hard times.  <Mood swings bad> <sulk in every other thing> <very fragile> <turns off quick> They say it's premenstrual syndrome and can last until seven days after the start of menstruation. Till then we have hard times, sometimes very hard. Worst of it is you can end up with discussions and stuffs with anyone, when you don't even have any kind of proper reason. It's...

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Thought for the day!

Neither my birth was in my hands nor my death could be, and in between I am punished for that what not was/will never be in my hands. World is cruel or may be we who make rules and follow them as such are crueler. Life is bizarre and everything in between! Metta...

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Popping in thoughts !

May be a thought box is what you end up as. No ifs, No but...

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Only if!

I live in a ruthless world. Very very ruthless it is. Neither it loves nor it returns the love back. I give back on me at times seeing this. At this moment I feel like may be life would have been better had I been born in the remotest part of the country. Had I had no access to the outside world. I would have been living a carefree happy life. I would not have had much aspirations, much dreams, much of thoughts. My life would have started at 5 AM in the morning and ended by 6 PM. I would just be thinking of the daily chores. Doing stuffs merrily....

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The NAMOnclature!

Not a Namo fanatic but just a thought came up after so many endearing talks about Namo in my country. The way the blame-game keeps returning to India's court every now and then revolved the thoughts around the situation. Well India has been playing it's card well it seems when it comes to Nepal. But my write is not based on what India is thinking and doing (as I myself donot know much) and focuses more on Namo, so I stick to him.  Talking...

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Downpours and Snapshots!

3:10 PM Adita was reading an e-paper when a desktop alert for an incoming mail stirred her attention. Quickly she swapped in through the mail and read it while she was taking her sip of coffee. Adita, Did you wish for the rain? or is it your inner thoughts that has come pouring down as rain? I don't know why, but today I feel the gloominess of your feels in the weather. Sent from my iPhone This was the message from Aaditya in her work...

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And You!

My primary focus was not you but your being...

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Possessiveness!

Suddenly I realised my possessiveness had been increasing. It always has been directly proportional to love for me and that I can feel the more. Metta I seek!...

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Distressed!

She tried everything, but nothing seems working. She's distressed...

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Tears, You and Me !

When I think of you tears roll down my eyes..Ahh ! how well we are connected #BestFriends...

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Why is the sky blue?

"Why is the sky blue?," she asked. "Did you not read your science book? They have got all the answers right. Let me get on with my studies for now," was his brief say. She quietened and turned over the pages. In some time their was a beep in her cell, she checked the screen and smiled out. Why is the sky blue?? #HeSheStories&nbs...

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Talks!

One day the sun will rise and ask, "did you live your life full?" and you will happily rise to say," yeah! I did," (in full spree) :-) That my dear is what matters in life, बाँकी सब फजुल हे ;-)! इति !...

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Says!

Some of the days I wondered. If you ever bothere...

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Ramblings!!

Someday when I will let you go. Remember. Nothing will remain back. And I will just let you g...

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Love for Love !!

Love loved like, the first rain the fresh dew the budding flower the rising sun the misty mountains the calm breeze. Love backed love like, the street side paani-puri 21 love ice cream momo with jhol warm cup of coffee sips of coke a long ride. Love and love loved !! Metta !! ...

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Feels !!

I could never love you lesser and I know someday I will fall in love with you again. ...

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Disgrace !

For a moment I felt like it was disgrace. But then that's how things move on. (Silence)...

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Periods !

Suddenly there existed no feeling. No feeling at al...

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That feeling !

That sudden feeling of so many things happening at the same time.  The heart beats fast. Butter flies in the stomach. and there's this urge to write. PS: I am feeling damn hungry *pop* *pop* Banana Lassi time...

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Said !!

Sometimes it makes me feel retarded, I belong to this worl...

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"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams" !!

I walk a lonely road The only one that I have ever known Don't know where it goes But it's home to me and I walk alone I walk this empty street On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Where the city sleeps And I'm the only one and I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk alone I walk a... My shadow's the only one that walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me 'Til then I walk alone Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah, Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah I'm walking down the line That divides...

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Marriage !!

Basically you are told your feathers are gonna be scratched and you are gonna live in a cage for the rest of your life...

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Her thoughts !!

She faked the *smilies*. She was somewhere hurt among those words, she never spoke o...

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In thoughts !

When it doesn't even make sense, why should you bother to bothe...

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The Hustle Bustle of The Town !!

And in the hustle bustle of the town; people came rushing went rushing too rushed the air rushed the beings rushing was the form waitings rushed unwaitings rushed rushed the thoughts rushed the whole crowd. And in the hustle bustle of the town; calmness was a nightmare uncalm thoughts uncalm were the beings even loving was uncalm hates were uncalmful enough uncalmness bereaved uncalmness brooded uncalm happiness uncalm were...

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Moods!

Tensed-- the song is the fastest on the playlist. *******Calms down********* Jumps to slow track immediately--Relaxed. Music defines m...

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Love Upreared !

Love said love more for the love just love I agreed loved love just love loved the more Love said love's done don't love love anymore I agreed unloved love no love for the love Love said love again not me the other love I was stoned eyes dried pain upheaval but love not loved Love inspects love summons love threatens to unlove love I said when all the love ended with love how do I love, love...

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Life Thoughts !

Sometimes I wonder for my call at! My calling wants to drag me somewhere, I don't know where. Yeas! I am still in search of *Metta*! Hope the search ends soon. Thoughts and Prayers...

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!!

I should have known it had to end somewhere but then it never ende...

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I Love Rains :-)!

Rain’ sings rain dances there's a charm in rain. Rain squeaks rain pampers there's fluidity in rain. Rain smells rain tastes there's gravity in rain. Rain closens rain departs there's the spark of love in rain Rain drenches rain flies there’s happiness in rain.  Oh Rain! dear rain I love rains J Metta ! Image courtesy: Google Images...

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Saw that too!

There was a pattern in our writes. We are a one-liner blogger...

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Moods !

There's nothing so very special to be talked about. Not even the rains ...

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Poising a thought !

Sometimes so many thoughts move around in mind that you can't just quieten them. Some of those thoughts got poised and spilled over here. ----- *Take I* My thoughts moved on from the age thing. What difference does it make when I say am 50 years old or 40 years old or 30 years old or  20 years old? Is my way of behaving garnered by my age. The day when I will reach 40 should it be different then the way I behaved when I was 20. Do I really need to change that far? Can I not behave like a teenager when am 40? Can I not wear what...

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Compassionate !

The way I was the way I am you sharpen the way it is let me get better along. (....to be continued)! ...

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Wishes and Prayers !

My evening prayers were up, when the sun went down. Prayers were there for you, you were there in those words. My wishes soared high, your name came all the while. If wishes are heard , Mark it; you will be mine!! Metta ! Image by: @KanchanOjha :-...

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Scribblings !

The  vanity in hopes Creations  in uncreativity Says in unsays Fathom in  freedom Likelihoods in unlikelihoods Hopes in despairs Beings in unbeings Bends in unbends Reactions for unreacted Life in non-livings, When you seek Bare the hands be Still the life be Scribble you though do Meaningless the feels be. Metta!! Image courtesy: @googleimages ...

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Mundane talks !

Some days are kind of confusing but still you try to overcome them. You panic and panic some more and that's how it goes. May be there's no better way to overcome them. Sometimes you seek for help, sometimes you speak off but that doesn't work all the time. And overtime you also know that it's useless to speak as well. That's the general common rule may be and there's no any alternate way out of it. (takes a long deep breathe) Signs off !! In...

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Friendship Day :-)!

If, I had to write a poem, and tell what a 'friend' means I would have wrote the poem sung lores & even tried writing stories I, would have then scribbled pages still the word 'friend" would not have fit in mere words and phrases and those bulk of pages Happy Friendship Day folks smile emoticon! Though a day is never enough for celebrating the loveliest of relation, still they say the first Sunday of August stands for Friendship day. Love the feeling of being a friend/having a friend and Cherish the bond smile emoticon!...

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I's (Eyes)

I read, those words for you I smiled. I read, those words again cloudy see thy. I touched, the corner of my eyes moist were thee. I tried, to swag the thought away dripped thy in the sea. I never knew, expressing those feels speechless I be. Metta! Image courtesy: @devianta...

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सोच-३

अनि अचानक लाग्यो जो जस्तो हुञ्छ उसलाई तेस्तै व्यवहार गर्नु कि नाइँ ? उत्तर खोज्दैं छु। इति ...

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#Phases !!

A thought just came over. Someday when I will look at my blog and remember the blabbering made in at so many instances then I will get to know, Yeah! I passed these phases of mine. Sometimes I might think, well I made so big talks at those times or may be I was so childish back then :-) The phases of life are really interesting. The other day I was reading a blog and came to know that the blog writer had already died. Well I was reading a dead...

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It was for YOU!

"My missings never end," she said with a wry smile and off she went. Metta ...

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They said !

“I'm in love with you," he said quietly. "Augustus," I said. "I am," he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crinkling. "I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor...

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She feels!

She was working firmly on her table when suddenly he came flying over her mind. She tried to swag his thought with a head bang as she always would have done.  But today she was being unable to. She tried hard to get back to her work but again felt like talking to him. She knew she would be disturbing him but still couldn't help herself back. Immediately she took her phone, dialed his number 98........ but cut it off abruptly. She knew she...

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ऊ- २ !

"आज देखि साँस लिन छोडि देऊ तिमि," आदेशात्मक पारामा भनेछन् उनीले। उन्को भनाईको लवज सुनी साँसको आवस्यकता नै केहि रहेनछ जस्तो लाग्यो ऊलाई पनि, अनि साँस रोकि बसि दिइ ऊ। इति !...

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Fragile !

I felt fragile lately coz the presence was omnipresent. I believed you existed but you were never there. Metta...

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Plot-less plots!

Whenever I start writing 2 or 3 plots move around at the same time in my mind and I end up writing nothing. This is not the first time it has happened, but for the umpteenth time again. Today too I was about to start with some other plot but seems I have ended up writing something else. I was talking to my friend lately, I said I sometimes write a lot of non-sensible stuffs. He was of the opinion, that it being my blog I had the right to do so....

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ऊ !!

"टिनको डब्बा उठाएर फाले जस्तो गर्नु भयो नि हजुरले, म त हाड/छाला र हृदय भएको मनुस्य पो थिए त।" यतिभन्दा भन्दै उस्को आवाज भासियो, अनि मुख फर्काएर हिडिछे ऊ !! इति !!...

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!!

"That was the day I knew I loved you to bits," she mumble...

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Love never loves !

When love knew it was love love never loved with more of love love upholds but love never loved in the sleepless nights when love up-roared yet love never loved and love sub-sides just then when love never love...

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Periods!

"Sometimes I find myself miserable, coz when I miss you I can't even say, "I miss you". Miser-ability crosses it's limit when I want to see you and can't even say ,"hey! lets meet". Feel helpless when I feel like running to you and letting you know how much I love you and then I can't." "How I wish I never fell in love!" she mumbled. Suman felt like she was listening to the radio as Preeya was speaking on her own. She heard her word by word. Felt her all the way. She knew she could not do anything more...

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Aftermath of love !

If love was it, she thought- she won't be able to love again.  Coz, all the loves got drained- in loving the lovable one. The lovable one, whose presence made her love- everyone some more.  Still love, peaked the more- gave her the strength.  That strength, which showed her the path- let her intact. Intactness, which made her pious- let her flee from the edge. Though, love was never hers- she loved love some...

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प्रिय धरहरा !

प्रिय धरहरा, तिमीलाई देखे  गलेको  ढलेको  निढाल  अस्तित्व-विहिन  कहिले नउठ्ने गरि  सुतेको।  त्यसरी देख्दा, मन थामेको   बाँध फुट्यो  चित्त फाट्यो  सुस्केरा छुट्यो  हाँसो हरायो  आखाँ रोयो  आशु बग्यो।  मनलाई संभाले  हेरे फर्की एता उता  फेरी देखे  तिमी माथि चिल कौवा सरि  झुन्डिएका ती  मनुष्यका हुल  तिमीलाई खोपि रहेका  नोचि...

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That day !

That day when the day begun it was cool and calm but by the end, it was doomed to dark That day, when the earth thrashed many hearts crashed & just in a blink, lives vanished That day, everyone could just shout heart wrenching were the voices life-turning were the happenings That day, everyone of us wished had the day never begun had it never existed After that day, we hope like every other day this day passes too !! Metta!! ...

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!!

I intrude into the un-intrudables. Metta...

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You!

I watched you from somewhere distant. Wondered, you can still bring tears to my eyes. Closed my eyes.  Metta ! ...

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Last night!

I can somehow connect to the last supper as I sit and write the "Last night" as of now. What would last supper be like. The end of many things while something new starts on.  For me as I write last night, I have so many things moving at the back of my head. Past 3 years roll down the memory lane. I will do this, I will be like this. Things will happen as such and all was there when I came to this place. For the past 3 years I have been...

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निर्विकल्पित !

निर्विकल्प भएर ऊ विकल्प खोज्न हिडिछे।  थाहा थियो ऊलाई के भै राखेको छ, आगामी के हुनेछ अनि सबै ति तेस्ता कुराहरु। धेरै चोटि आउने बिचार नै यहि थियो कि ऊलाई हरेक कुराको पूर्वाभास कसरि हुन्छ।  फेरि सोच्थि केहि थाहा नै नहुने भए कति रमाइलो हुन्थ्यो जिन्दगि अनि फेरि अर्को सोच आई टोपल्थ्यो या बढि भयावह नै हुन्थ्यो।  जे होस् ऊस्को सोचको परिधि भन्दा बाहिर पुगिसकेको थियो हरेक कुरो अनि ऊ धेरै कुरो नि सहन नसक्ने भै सकेकि थिई।   फेरी सोच्थि ऊस्ले चाहेंकि त थिइन नि य़ी सब कुरो फेरि उसै सँग किन हुन गएछ सब। तेहि...

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The Torn Feathers!

She flapped her wings they seemed torn she tried to fly far was the sky She tried to speak came out the whimpers hard she cry but her pains didn't die She tend to stand tough though she was in a grump she did not squeak a bit even her silence didn't speak She was a masterpiece still things were out of peace she kept trying though her efforts were dying And then she left the grumblings out came the sufferings she saw her feathers cut still she...

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She-my friend (The "HALTED" story)

14th March, 2015  After freshening up early in the morning, I directly went to my laptop. I had some quick emails to make as I was busy preparing for a trip starting the next day. It was a week long trip where I was to have limited access to email. With a cup of tea I sat before the screen and started my e-day. As I was going through the regular mails, a subject line drew my attention. It was written in bold letters 'HALTED'. This was a...

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