"Who we really are?- Our own person before our ego develops," Suman said. Some thoughts. Some important thoughts!About the same time I happened to listen to Yuval Noah Harari-- this person was telling that what we humans tend to believe becomes the reality. Like the way we have given importance to money and some paper bills are considered to be of great value is just the result of our acceptance. We think this exists, that sure does exist. Isn't it interesting? The way we have let something grow more than the others. Maybe sometimes let the nonexistent...
Tuesday, December 06, 2022
Tuesday, November 29, 2022
Two things: Random reminders!
Nov 29, 2022Two things:One: A couple of days back I reread a message- "Do you like straight forward criticism?" I said: Yes. They: "your writing is bland. No taste, no writing skill, no proper use of verbose."I knew then, I am not a great writer, but I try to express- I try to write, just in the hope I will be better. I still tend to write even though I was heart broken then, I doubted myself a little bit more then. I still write, because...
Scared!
Have you been scared. Scared like anything at any time? I don't know why the scary feelings linger but they do!And this scariness is also not like that SCARINESS but just that that slowly cringes your heart and knocks you slowly whenever you are opening your email.Hopefully, this too shall pass!!Met...
Tuesday, November 15, 2022
A manual Monologue!
Every day is different from the other- I feel better than yesterday. Still there are unknown paths (many), but I hope I will be able to figure them out.Academia is hard, tough and there are so many unknown paths that need to be figured out. Maybe some day it will be fine, maybe some day I will be able to tell someone like me, it's okay to not know and you will figure out the way. It is fine having shortcomings.Just that it's been a lot of years living the life of struggles that some days the struggles seem too much. And I feel like I am just done....
Sighs!
The journey is getting more difficult each day. I don't know. I really don't know!Please help!!Met...
Sunday, November 13, 2022
This feeling!
I am scared, more scared lately than any other time. Maybe every other scary moment feels as such. But I do feel so.I just hope these feelings goes away!Mett...
Saturday, September 17, 2022
This!
Is it just me who doesn't seem lovable? Or doesn't deserve the love I should? Or made mistakes, never revocab...
Monday, August 22, 2022
Aarvik in August!
Last week, Aarvik (maybe August 19) and I were walking to his daycare when we saw a kid on the way with their parent and Aarvik said “she works at my office.” Made me laugh- he literally takes his “office” seriously 😊!Met...
Wednesday, June 08, 2022
Doing the uncomfortable conversations? Would it help?
Would teaching people on Sexism, homophobia and trans-phobia help them have a different attitude towards what they think? Would it help?This is a grave question and one that keeps on coming in my mind. Would having deep conversations around these help? I feel that it should? and many times making conversation is so hard. But at least we can try? Right? We SHOULD TRY, everyday some more.Because people do not think that ways (why do they not?)? they are not at all brained that ways (why are they not?)? and neither have they seen things in those angles...
Tuesday, June 07, 2022
Aarvik says about age and other things!
7 June 2022Aarvik says: "Mamu, when you were my age- you were a kid." ☺! And the long explanation thereafter, how it happens about our age and then when he becomes our age he will be "big people like mamu and buwa."Things he says.When I wear a dress, he's like "You are not princess, why are you wearing this cloth?" "You are people." 😀! He has a story of his own.Metta!&nb...
Saturday, June 04, 2022
I read the book "The Love Hypothesis"
I finished reading the book on June 3, 2022 somewhere around midnight! Image: From GoodReads page It just took longer for me to sit down and finish reading a book, and it happened to be that "The Love Hypothesis" happened to be the one book I finished after a long time. Everyone has a reason for reading a book. For me, I liked Richa's book review and went for this one and borrowed one from the library. The book reached our house via the...
Thursday, June 02, 2022
Can you?
Can you try to do the impossible and come back a week later and say that you really did the impossible.Can you??Met...
Monday, May 02, 2022
Today: May 2, 2022
Reading a sentence in mind in my tone and feeling bad about it. That's it. That's the write for today.Met...
Thursday, April 07, 2022
I miss you!
Some days it feels very lonely, as if there is no one- no one there for you. It's so lonely. The path is lonely, the journey is lonely and there is just no one for you. No one at all. No friends, no family, no one, no where-- not even any closer. And all is there is that you are in a limbo trying to connect with different varieties of people who do not understand you and you do not make sense. You are like you're just alone. There's a group who thinks they are too young to be connected to you and there's some other who think you are too out...
Wednesday, March 16, 2022
Thoughts on Karl Polanyi (shallow ones)!
When I look at history from this point, I find it weird-- why were people so thoughtless and would not make any sense at that point of time and then I think--oh well (this was thinking about the law against biracial marriages in California, the gay marriage everywhere, acceptance of trans-people and so so many others--)At this moment I am reading Karl Polanyi's correspondence (typed letters) he made at different point of times and just making me feel like, those people who lived that moment it was such a great thing for them to do those things...
Tuesday, March 15, 2022
Life and it's stories
When I lose hope, will you hold me?Hold me as if this is the only thing that exists and there's nothing above or beyond. And we exist while sondering in between- every once in a while. #Life !Met...
Sunday, March 06, 2022
Today!
The sun is shining at my face when I try seeking some hope. Life is pretty as be with some sunshines and some winter rains. Met...
Thursday, January 13, 2022
Aarvik says!
13 January, 2021Our kiddo Aarvik comes up and says "I don't like small kids." Well day to be noted.Met...