I realize the want of talking more lately. Feels like so much of quietness has engulfed me that at times all I want to do is to talk. Talk about various things, books, plants, paintings, pictures, travels, something new ongoing around, values of life, worldview one makes and so many more things. And I feel there's a dearth in talking always, if it were not for Suman, my life would have missed all the meaningful conversations. I can't make people understand my state of thought, my mentality at the moment and anything. Or if I speak it would be...
Friday, November 29, 2019
Friday, November 22, 2019
Moments of grief !
That moment when you even have no one to cry with and you are helpless like anything. I know that times will be better but it has already taken a lot of time. Please help endure dear heart!
This playlist now https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fd2e-mmeU_w !
Metta !!...
Conversations with thyself !
Some days it makes me believe my says are useless and of no use. However, I cannot make not saying says. Many times it's like talking to myself but yet I do. Many days I endure and some days I just cannot overcome it.
Thankfully I can pour words in the blank walls and fill the voids around.
Metta...
Sunday, November 17, 2019
Learning a different way !
I heard him complaining. Complaining about our thoughts-questioning our thoughts? Why/how can you be so? think so?
How could we complain about something he revered? He worshipped all throughout. Maybe our question hit hard on him at that point. Maybe it was a kick on something he worshipped. He couldn't handle it because someone was stepping on that. On my part, I was saying-my feelings. Just my feelings and trying to learn my way. Maybe an irrevalent comment it could have been. But it was my thought. I am learning via my thoughts, my perspectives...
Sunday, November 10, 2019
Tranquility
NO you cannot feel bad. You are already a mother. Sink in "Mom" Sink in :-)
Metta...
Thursday, November 07, 2019
Excuses and life !
Sometimes it feels like I have been a bag of excuses. Excuses are what I make, but then I don't seem to have a way out. That's the only thing I have because those are realities in my life. They are happening as a series of mishaps and I am captured in those. Though I try to get out of them, try to run things better. I am captured. Captured somewhere in between. Hopefully, this too shall pass. Just that this passing time has been long and I am in trouble at this moment.
Mett...
Tuesday, November 05, 2019
To you, my friend !
I couldn't have get along easier, had I not had my comfort zone around and some good people. Chantal, I will remember you for ages. For ages, you will be that friend who was beside me when I needed someone the most. Words indeed cannot define the feels at times I felt. You are beyond words.
Thank you for being there. I cannot thank you enough!
Loves,
Ka...
Wednesday, October 30, 2019
Random ramblings !
Even the day was sunny, there's nothing much brightness around to look forward to.
Hopefully, things work. I cross my fingers. I pray! Hope almighty listen. Hope
Metta...
Some days !
Meanwhile, I do not see any good way to move ahead. I am in between the clueless clouds.
Please get the clouds over and take them away! Please.
Metta !...
Thursday, October 24, 2019
Drained to bits !!
It's pretty weird, very very weird in fact when she tells me "you should be sad for the unknown saddening that might approach your life"
"Why are you so happy?" "Anything can happen anytime. Nothing is sure."
The message comes to me as "Cry over what has not come to you, but you never know can come. Not every person has a good life like you and you should be *pretty sad* because you have a good life which can alter any time. Don't be happy," that is her message many times. And I wonder why is this that this world and its people are left with...
Saturday, September 28, 2019
Days!
It's exhilarating mostly, having to fight with self and the whole world and still remain empty!!
Metta...
Tuesday, August 20, 2019
Times !!
It's a roar inside and the outside is calm. Such a tranquil stage to be in !!
Let the time pass and things settle down.
Metta !
(It's 4:33 AM on 21st August, 201...
Tuesday, March 26, 2019
Turtles all the way down- A review!
This is my third read by John Green and all three reads have captured young adults in the storyline. Aza Holmes is the protagonist in this novel who suffers from obsessive-compulsive disorder and severe anxiety. She has a tough time dealing with it and takes regular counseling from her psychologist. She cannot control the feeling that anything that happens to her will lead her to be affected by Clostridium difficile (C. diff ) and eventually...
Monday, January 28, 2019
Today !!
Some days you feel bad. Bad realizing that you were never a part.
Metta ...